Why did i post my title as what stated?…

Seriously?..
I don’t know…

=_=

So i joined a couple of Soompi’s entertainment online agency’s….

Singing agencies that is…

Basically thats my only strong point at the moment…
Or so that’s what i wanted to think of myself xD..

I was gonna say “im also a good dancer…” but then again…being to fat isn’t that convincing ya know what i mean?…xD

I need to loose weight..
At least, Loose the fat on the tummy area…

I tried to do sit-ups which right now i could only do up to 15-20 in one go….So im trying to get atleast 50 in one go…

Muri desu ne~~~~~~~ (It’s impossible riiigghhhhtt~~~~)

I don’t know why, Im getting addicted to singing and always have the urge to sing with people….
Maybe one day….I try to chase this impossible dream..haha~~

Right now, I’ll just stick with what im facing right now and try to by pass that with positive attitude everyday!

I can see why people are being so negative about life…and i also why people are striving to be so positive about it…

hell, Im doing the same thing every single friggin days!

How i get so positive about everything?…

MUSIC!!

Thats about it..

Boyfriend doesn’t help..

Friends can do that much to help…

Family can do so little…

So?..

turn to something you like….

Whether ..

singing…

dancing…

going hyper crazy…

Or just move to the music beat…

Love every second of life like you’re moving endlessly to the music beat…

Thats what im doing now..

Minor bumps on the road?..Of course that many!
But who cares?…As long as YOU are leading your OWN life…everyone can either join you..or get the fuck out!

why want to blend IN a crowd when you can have fun being an individualist?…

Listen people….do what you do best…
To hell with people who gave an ass crack to the way you’re thinking now…

As long as its beneficial and gain you respect to the community or whomever or even your own self…you’ll always got my support..

but if you’re starting to smoke pot, crack, marijuana, crystal meth, or even big orgy with random people..than you still got my vote…

for you to rot in hell tho ^_^…

Love and Peace people

heachan

GOOD!!

I have been working at Beverly so much that i am growing attach to it!
can’t believe in just 1 month and 5 days left until I finished my training and back to college!

I want to reminisce those days and keep it fresh in my head!
ALWAYS!!
and now…Its seems my relationship with my big sister is getting ok..my relationship with yakuza-bro is  still ok…relationship with dad..suprisingly..ok…[< that shock me!]
and i still hate his new wife..[oh yeah] and also his deranged stepdaughter….

So everything is ok XD…
Everything is going smoothly somehow badluck had turned around…

I think im gonna die this year..-__-..why?
Because it has been good this past few weeks that i wont mind if its my last time on earth ^_^’

Is that bad to say?…
Because its the truth…

I feel so content…And that is something i feared had buried down with my mum ..6 years ago…

Its been great…
I hope this will be a good year for me…

Im 19!

Not a kid anymore..

Not an adult yet…

Im just….Growing up

So please god, bear with this crazy-kiddy-mood swings-life complaints-dateless teenager…!

^^

Good night everybody…

I can’t really figure things out clearly..Its all still blurry..
It seems like i want to rebel..A LOT..

So im trying to content myself with all the craziness in my life…

I promised myself to be a more positive and out-spoken person in the future…

ITS hard..
VERY VERY HAAAAAAAARRRRRRDDDDDDD

So im trying to be who i am now..
No more pretending as whom people want me..
I will speak my mind…

If you hate me…then im sorry…what you’re hearing is the truth…
But if you’re fine with it…then im glad you’re listening….

Im not a perfect person…
and im not be-little-ling you…
I will be telling in a nicest way as who i am…

So please accept me for who i am…
And imperfect human being…

{Sometimes, in order to not fall apart…You have to let go of what keeps you…TOGETHER…}

Thats what i wrote on the paper with the crying anime girl…

I got that quote from my celphone theme…
Its so adorable..and meaningful…Thats why i decided to use it ^^

…

Im looking for a better tomorrow and future..
Even if it means im walking ALONE…..

Good night everyone..and sweet dreams

-heachan-

A dream that i can’t follow..
A life that is forbidden..
What else i got if not death itself..
Which is not mine..

Oh Mighty lord,
I kneeled before thee..
The life you offered..
i’ve ignored..

Therefore, Take it away,
Far from me..
Let me close my eyes..
And lay asleep..

***********
I was feeling a bit poetry tonight.
Poem has been one of the other way to convey my feelings..Other than singing..
But Poem has been something i’ve been doing longer than singing..

Why?..
Because poetry lets me show my REAL and true expression rather than music..
This poem is not really my feeling today…XD..
But i find its….beautiful…-__-

heachan