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Selamat Hari Raya all…

Thanks for reading my rants and bitchiness for one year…hope to c you all in a wonderful new year..and if you ever see me walking around on your street…

dont forget to say HI …^_^

edit: You all can still find me on my facebook.com/shakeera31 or my youtube : heaveninlove2…

good bye everyone! *waves*

-heachan

Lately i’ve been having nightmares and images that..well…how can i say it…not that good!…

and its getting to me when im beginning to get paranoid on things…. Im angry..Im tired…I haven’t sleep greatly…I haven’t been eating well and to top it all off, my stomach hasn’t been in great shape lately as i always went to the toilet to take a dump every passing minutes.

.and i swear to god i can see bones on parts of my body that i never knew existed….=.=

I can feel my body breaking down every second… I kept getting the same scene in the nightmare and it scared the hell out of me…

Do i need to take it as a play in dreamland [but its re-occuring again and again everytime i sleep....]
or
Someone is trying to contact me from the other realm [that would be scary and cool at the same time]
or
Do i need to see a shrink [which i don't particularly believe in]
or
AM I LOOSING MY SANITY?? [which prolly can happen!]

I don’t know… I feel that much fear in me …in that sleep…

first the baby..then an 8-10 year old kid [or so what i thought...] and then an adult/teenage like figure…wrapped in a white clothing…a.k.a pocong…

I can’t do it anymore…
I canNOT get this kind of dreams anymore..
aren’t im supposed to dream about hot guys…naked…sex or something?…

-heachan-

or what youtubers called…Vocaloid dance version..

Or is it just me?..>

Anyways…

Hope u have fun…I was out of breath doing this…

proves that im not longer FIT to dance..

and i need to be FIT to do what i love =.=

enjoy loves~

So..I try my hand in harmonizing again…
and i try singing in a higher range on the melody and use my original voice for the lower harmonies…

I think it compliments each other voices ^_^…

have a listen and tell me what u think ^_^..
This song have a sexy feeling on it…im not sure if i achieved on that tho…coz i VERY SELDOM sing a sexy-like song LOL

PS: i’ve been busy….but im back and still kicking it old skool xD
original song is from W a.k.a Tsuji Nozomi and Kago Ai

-heachan-

She pointed it from the inside…
We ran as fast as we could…we fall…we hit rocks..we bleed…WE DON’T CARE!
As soon as I opened the door and i saw my dad wasn’t moving….My heart stopped, My mind went blank…All i do was calling god’s name while running to his hide….

When i noticed his mouth was saying “what’s wrong?” where he claimed that he thought Auntie was shouting because we was  in trouble…I was on my knees..and i panicked!..

I call my brother in law..Leo to come and bring my dad to the hospital….I didn’t call my sister because she was 6 months pregnant and i read from the books that pregnant woman cannot get any kind of shock news coz it might be fatal for them and the baby…

Then i call my yakuza-bro….I couldn’t held myself anymore..I started crying and my body feels heavier than usual…and i fall on knees while yelling the words “COME HOME NOW, BAPA…HE’S ..SOMETHING WRONG WITH BAPA…COME HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

I was scared…I was panicked….All my trained years as a red cross member didn’t helped me at all…..

I felt ………………..useless…

seeing my dad like that….I could only cry….Its been  6 years. I cried that hard….
It reminds me with the memory when my mom was sick and dying 6 years ago….the PAINFUL memory that i’ve locked deep inside my thoughts….

was unlocked….

It was happening again….

and….

I couldn’t do nothing but cry like the useless person I am….

When we went to the hospital, The doctor said he had a minor stroke..called TIA

Find more here.. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transient_ischemic_attack…\

Right now, he’s in a stable condition….I hope everything will be ok…

I cannot face a 2nd loss….

Im still on the edge of my insanity knowing that i’ve lost the ONLY mother i have 6 years ago..which felt like yesterday..everyday…..

I’ll literally DIE, If i loss my ONLY dad i have for 19 years now…

I made a promise then…I lost my mum…I felt like dying…my world became blacker than usual…..and if i lost my dad too..I swear i’ll kill myself if i didn’t die too…

and im still keeping the promise locked in my head…..

I cannot live…………….no….I cannot move on……Its so hard….
Its hard to accept the truth….

Maybe…I am…already screwed!

-heachan-

U might know what im talking about..

THIS IS BY FAR THE WORST MALAY SO-CALLED HORROR MOVIE…DAMMIT!

Everything was on key..

the scary-like poster…
the scary-like preview…
the right amount of screening time…which is 1 1/2 hours…
The way they present the story…which is the actors tell 9 different stories to us….

Seems like nothing wrong right?..

WRONG!

The ghost are not scary…IN fact the actress and actors who played the ghost needs to be fired because they CAN NEVER do a well job being a ghost…

2 actress telling the stories need to be paid less coz the way the acted is seriously NOT convincing enough…

THE EFFECTS…THE GHOST MAKE-UP..
ALL THESE STAFFS!!!
DOES NOT DESERVE TO BE CREDITTED AS SUCH..

why?..

coz trust me when i say..they are doing the LOUSIEST work ever…
WELL, thats the LAST time im watching any SUCKY ghost flick from Malaysia…

They need to improve….

or just stay on the comedy genre…other than that…

MOVIE RATE: 3 1/2 stars…

why?…Coz this so called scary movie ceased to not stopped all the movie junkers laughing from it…^_^♥…

For the movie itself..i’ll rate it as :::::1 1/2 stars only…

YES, Its that bad…

why?

Recycling scary sound effects from Jangan Tegur and Jangan Pandang Belakang….calls the LOUSIEST work ever!!!

Up to you to watch it….

but kudos to the actors, actresses on starring on this worst Malaysian Movie Ever…

and kudos to the Director..who have the BALLS on making it…♥

-heachan-

So, Anyone have ever heard Esmee Denters new song?
Its called “Outta Here”

IF no one know who the heck im talking about….Esmee Denters was one of the most subcribed and famous cover singer and original singer on youtube from Dutch….
I think it was on 2007 , she is signed to Justin Timberlake’s label…

Outta Here is the most recent song Esmee sang..

So i ought to try and cover it..

and its a total..FAIL! xD….

I can’t hit the high notes without going out of tune…I need to work on that..
im not sure if its because of not much practice on the high notes or I just don’t regularly sing in English LOL…

Anywho…

here it is

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B5rnFOZRp2k

just make sure NOT to get it loud…..it’ll bleed your ears xD

-heachan-

but FCUK!!!!!

-heachan-

Our Household cat, si Kuning..or better known as Beaufort..coz that’s where my sister brought him from…
Is such a man-whore to camera’s..I mean….he’s always ready whenever my phone camera is snapping!..xD

SEE?

before i took my phone cam, he was like scratching and licking himself crazy..and as soon as he heard my back phone flips..he stood like this until i snap the camera..xD

Before that, I manage to quickly snap a  pic of him..wasn’t ready for action xD

xD….

He’s like animal version of Deuce Bigalow xD

-heachan-